i only wanted

doesn’t it ever stay
must it always fade away
couldn’t love ever be
something tangible and real
farewell, fairweather friend
abandonment returns to taunt me again

i only wanted you to stay
linger and mean the words you said
foolishly i romanticized
someone was saving my life
for the first time
i only wanted you to be there when i
opened up my eyes

i was caught in your masquerade
wish i’d stayed beneath my veil
but it just seemed so easy to
open up myself to you
once more into the wind
the embers scatter
and the chill settles in

i only wanted you to stay
linger and mean the words you said
foolishly i romanticized
someone was saving my life
for the first time
i only wanted you to be there when i
opened up my eyes

i only wanted you to be
ihe one to get me
through that night

doesn’t it ever stay?
i only wanted you to stay

after all that’s said and done, i had hoped that it would have ended better. again, i disappointed myself.

your displays of how you’ve stolen my place, in the desperate road to contentment, showed me no more light than before, but a misguided solution i should follow.

and if tomorrow i should be lonesome, i may as well not tell anyone of my leaving, and fear alone.

for the existence of this fear, shows me how i’m sorry to you, but it would’ve been peace, had those words escaped from you gently.

melankolia

tirai yang kelabu, selubungi ku
setiap ruang kenyataan hidup ini
hingga ku ragu, jua keliru
antara kebenaran, kepalsuan

sepanjang berharap datang melanda
ketenangan jauh sekali ku kecapi
hingga ku rasa tidakkan ada
sinaran mentari kembali lagi

lemahnya diri ini, tewasnya hati ini
terhanyut dalam arus deras
tak daya ku renangi, tak daya ku harungi
hingga ku karam ke dasar sepi

kesilapan lalu, terus memburu
menjadi bebayang hitam yang menghantu ku
tanpa simpati, tanpa peduli
sekalipun ku tersungkur begini

tertutup pintu pengharapan
sehingga terhakisnya kewarasan
tewasnya hati terhanyut dalam arus deras

lemahnya, terhanyut, tak daya, ku tak daya